20 may 15
she rises also while it is still night, and gives food to her household.
i sacrifice to see that our family is fed and healthy
i’ll be honest, it’s amazing to me that something written this long ago still has the power to convict and change me – not that it should be so amazing since it is God’s Word – unchanging and eternal. this verse is definitely part of the reason i have spent most of my adult life disliking the proverbs 31 woman: i do not like mornings and i love my bed. but i’m trying to allow God to work on me in this. ever since reading this in Becoming a Titus 2 Woman i’ve been praying for his power to help me change:
a godly wife works hard and is not lazy. she should stay home enough to get her work done. i have heard of women who pride themselves on being “night people.” that means they have trouble getting up in the mornings because they come alive late at night. they may stay up to all hours reading, watching television, or pursuing some sort of interest. the next morning they are too tired to get up and care for their family. children are left to fend for themselves. husbands, too.
these woman are not “night people.” they are lazy and selfish. who would not rather stay up late to do whatever they pleased and sleep late the next day? lazy people are often busy, but they are not busy doing the work that God has given them to do. they are incredibly self-indulgent.. the older, more mature women in the church should lovingly but firmly confront these young Christian mothers and exhort them not to be selfish, but to consider their families as “more important than themselves” (philippians 2:3). (p. 116)
yeah, it still stings. there was no getting away from any of it when i read it the first time. this was likely the most painful mirror i had to look in. (now the word sacrifice in my interpretation of the verse makes sense, doesn’t it?)
God, thank you for working in my heart thus far. let me give you, or better yet, i give you, those last couple hours before bed that i’m holding onto. i’m hesitant, sure, but i’m wanting to mean it!